Rev. Willie Wilson recently declared that lesbianism will destroy the black family! It's true, hide your daughters! While delivering a sermon, Wilson described how difficult it was for his son to get a date for his prom because all the girls in the class were lesbians (the non-gay girls were too ugly for him). He didn't say what his son looks like...
This is the same guy who ran for mayor a few years ago, and this drama proves that the city dodged a bullet by re-electing Mayor Williams. In a progressive, diverse city, we can't afford to have idiots in public office. We need to have politicians who are sensitive to the needs of the entire city, and not just the needs of teenage boys who want to find dates.
Although the gay community got all hot and bothered after Wilson's comments were printed in the newspaper, they'll get over this. It's not like Willie Wilson is anything to them anyway. He's just a old hustler [ur, umm preacher] who probably says stupid stuff like this all the time. He's not an elected official who represents a constituency, like say...Marion Barry, who didn't exactly repudiate Wilson for his incindiary remarks. Barry slithered his way out of this one by saying that he would *talk* to Wilson. Here's my interpretation of what might happen:
Barry: Hey man, you're getting a lot of heat for making those comments about black lesbians. What are you going to do about it?
Wilson: Nothing. Why should I apologize? It's true, those man-hating lesbians have runied my son's prom. So now who's he supposed to take?
Barry: He could take a white girl. You know how they love the brothers.
Wilson: Do you honestly expect him to take a white girl to his prom in DC, Chocolate City? There ain't no white girls in SE.
Barry: Naw, man they taking over this city. I saw some white people walking around on MLK the other day. Maybe he can find a nice Spanish girl. They live all over NW these days.
Wilson: Yeah, maybe that girl, Maria, who cleans the church can go with him. But wait, she don't speak enough English. How would she know that my son was asking her out? What else you got?
Barry: Well, how about one of those girls who work behind the counter at the corner store. What are they, Korean? What about one of them?
Wilson: Huh? One of those little Korean girls that look like boys? What would that look like, my son at the prom with a little Korean boy in a dress?
Barry: I don't know what to tell you, man. Maybe he should ask one of the ugly girls. Hey, can I check them out before he decides...
Wilson: See the trouble those damn lesbians have caused? The black family is doomed!!!
(Okay, that may have been one of the lamest exchanges since Paris and Nicole attempted to explain why they are so popular, but you get the point.)
And to think that all this time, everyone's been so focused on how black women are not finding suitable marriage partners because of all the brothers who are either in prison, out of work, or dead. And all those so-called straight men on the down low? Clearly, it's the lesbians who made them that way!
In reality, the reasons for the peril within the black family are much more complex. Sure, there is the usual litany of social ills, but the situation also has a lot to do with respect. I'm not at all suggesting that people chose the gay lifestyle, but I can't help but think that there is a percentage of these women who decided that given the choice between an abusive man and a loving woman, there was no contest. And as long as boys are boys and girls are girls, and hormones rage out of control during adolescence, there will never be an epidemic of homosexuality. If anything, these kids are exploring their sexuality, and this is merely a phase. If some of them find out that they are in fact, gay, then so be it. It's better to find that out now than to wait ten years down the line to *discover* someone's hidden sexuality. Just ask Terri McMillan...
In the final analysis, this is the same type of scape-goating that has taken place for years within the black community. We always point fingers at each other for the failings of our families. Rev. Wilson has only added his voice to the chorus of those who blame "strong" black women for making manhood irrelevant. Soon, there will be the counter-point advanced by one of the self-described strong sisters who will recite the many reasons why black men aren't good enough for them, and the debate will continue.
I say we all need to take a look in the mirror. Maybe the problem isn't so much a collective one, but merely result of our individual failures in taking personal responsibility for our actions. After all, I am ultimately responsible for whatever good or bad I do in a relationship, right?
If not, then I can just pass the blame onto someone else, like maybe the Canadiens...
Monday, July 18, 2005
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
Crash into a Ditch
I saw "Crash" over the weekend, and I'm not buying it. I don't believe people think that way, let alone verbalize their feelings in that manner. No way. I thought it was a pretty good movie, but it only scratches the surface of human interaction. There are a thousand and one possible responses to any one event, and race is not the default reaction, it is merely one possibility.
While everyone is hyper-sensitive when it comes to race, we are not so high-strung as to be trigger happy. The movie assumes that everyone's underlying feelings about race live just below the surface of our regular day-to-day interactions, and that any slight thing can set things off. In other words, race relations are like little atom bombs inside people's heads.
I still don't buy it. As strongly as I believe that people are more racist than they care to admit (and we all are), I think that we have evolved to the point where we have a decent amount of impulse control. We are all aware of our conduct in public, and we know how to keep our feelings in check. We also know that our daily interactions involve more than just color and ethnicity, but they also deal with class, gender, and religion. While I might get angry with the black girl at McDonald's for screwing up my order, her error isn't any worse than that committed by the white waitress who forgets to bring me a glass of water at a sit-down restaurant.
A few weeks ago, word got out the Oprah had been barred from entering the Hermes store in Paris because it had closed. The initial story was that she had been prevented from coming in because the store had experienced recent troubles with theft from North Africans, and Oprah looked suspicious enough that the salespeople refused to let her in. Then the story began to change and by the end of the week, Hermes had issued an apology and Oprah had decreed that she would dedicate an entire hour of her show to the experience. In a statement, she described this incident as her "crash" moment.
Please! As the story morphed from one day to the next, it was revealed that the salespeople immediately recognized Oprah, but still prevented her from entering because the store was closed (and had been for over 30 minutes) and there were preperations underway for a private event. So, she had not been turned away because of her race, it was just the normal course of business.
There have been countless times when I attempted to beat the clock to shop when I knew that a store was about to close. And my success has been about even--some days I make it in before the doors lock, other times, I have had the door slammed in my face. I don't take it as a racial slight because I realize that salespeople have lives, the store has hours, and I should have planned for an earlier arrival. The fact that I have strong intentions and money to shop are irrelevant because rules are rules.
But in Oprah's world, rules that are inconvenient should not apply to her. As the most recognizable black woman on the planet (and probably slightly more important that Condi Rice), she apparently felt that her need to shop trumped whatever need there was for the store to remain closed. Sure, as a woman of means she should be able to get her way, but not in every situation, even though she has enough money to demand otherwise.
If this were Martha Stewart, I believe that the store would have remained closed (but due to her hyper-efficiency, Martha would have arrived before the store closed). There is no racist implication, especially since the salespeople recognized her. The great asset to being Oprah Winfrey is that people always recognize you (just ask all those black women who get identified as Oprah by mistake).
The real truth is that like other rich and powerful people, Oprah doesn't like to be told no. The rest of us mortals deal with *no* on a regular basis, but to the rich, no is the ultimate affront. No is a denial of power; it is a snub. It is the proverbial finger in your eye. No is the most powerful little word in the world.
When the Queen of England tells her sons that she doesn't wish for them to get divorced, they ignore her and do it anyway. When the Pope told George W. not to go to war in Iraq, W ignored him and fired away. When Martha told the judge that she was not guilty and just wanted to go home to her lemon trees, the judge told her no and sent her off to jail. When Moses went to Pharoah and told him to let the Israelites go, Pharoah said no and woke up one morning to find his son dead. No happens, even to the greatest among us. When God told Adam not to eat the fruit of the forbidden tree, what did Adam do as soon as God wasn't looking? Oprah, welcome to the world of no.
Unfortunatly, Hermes acted cowardly and immediately issued mea culpas for their actions. No doubt, the employee who locked the door has been fired, and the watch Oprah intended to buy has already been delivered without her having to pay. By the time the "Crash" show airs in September, her studio audience will also receive a carload of gifts from Hermes.
If there is a lesson to derive from Oprah's experience or from the movie, it is that people *crash* into each other for a variety of reasons. The history of racism in this country and around the world certainly makes us more aware, so it stands to reason that people do everything they can to avoid each other on that basis. Thus, race doesn't propel us toward each other at any greater speed than anything else. In Oprah's case, her sense of entitlement collided head on with Hermes, which felt just as entitled as she did (after all, she can't possibly be the first rich person to make similar demands).
In the final analysis, we all crash, usually when we aren't paying attention. It happens when we let down our guard or take our eyes off the road. It is an inevitable part of life, but we recover, get back to our routines, and do our best to make better choices.
In the future, I think Oprah will now call ahead...
While everyone is hyper-sensitive when it comes to race, we are not so high-strung as to be trigger happy. The movie assumes that everyone's underlying feelings about race live just below the surface of our regular day-to-day interactions, and that any slight thing can set things off. In other words, race relations are like little atom bombs inside people's heads.
I still don't buy it. As strongly as I believe that people are more racist than they care to admit (and we all are), I think that we have evolved to the point where we have a decent amount of impulse control. We are all aware of our conduct in public, and we know how to keep our feelings in check. We also know that our daily interactions involve more than just color and ethnicity, but they also deal with class, gender, and religion. While I might get angry with the black girl at McDonald's for screwing up my order, her error isn't any worse than that committed by the white waitress who forgets to bring me a glass of water at a sit-down restaurant.
A few weeks ago, word got out the Oprah had been barred from entering the Hermes store in Paris because it had closed. The initial story was that she had been prevented from coming in because the store had experienced recent troubles with theft from North Africans, and Oprah looked suspicious enough that the salespeople refused to let her in. Then the story began to change and by the end of the week, Hermes had issued an apology and Oprah had decreed that she would dedicate an entire hour of her show to the experience. In a statement, she described this incident as her "crash" moment.
Please! As the story morphed from one day to the next, it was revealed that the salespeople immediately recognized Oprah, but still prevented her from entering because the store was closed (and had been for over 30 minutes) and there were preperations underway for a private event. So, she had not been turned away because of her race, it was just the normal course of business.
There have been countless times when I attempted to beat the clock to shop when I knew that a store was about to close. And my success has been about even--some days I make it in before the doors lock, other times, I have had the door slammed in my face. I don't take it as a racial slight because I realize that salespeople have lives, the store has hours, and I should have planned for an earlier arrival. The fact that I have strong intentions and money to shop are irrelevant because rules are rules.
But in Oprah's world, rules that are inconvenient should not apply to her. As the most recognizable black woman on the planet (and probably slightly more important that Condi Rice), she apparently felt that her need to shop trumped whatever need there was for the store to remain closed. Sure, as a woman of means she should be able to get her way, but not in every situation, even though she has enough money to demand otherwise.
If this were Martha Stewart, I believe that the store would have remained closed (but due to her hyper-efficiency, Martha would have arrived before the store closed). There is no racist implication, especially since the salespeople recognized her. The great asset to being Oprah Winfrey is that people always recognize you (just ask all those black women who get identified as Oprah by mistake).
The real truth is that like other rich and powerful people, Oprah doesn't like to be told no. The rest of us mortals deal with *no* on a regular basis, but to the rich, no is the ultimate affront. No is a denial of power; it is a snub. It is the proverbial finger in your eye. No is the most powerful little word in the world.
When the Queen of England tells her sons that she doesn't wish for them to get divorced, they ignore her and do it anyway. When the Pope told George W. not to go to war in Iraq, W ignored him and fired away. When Martha told the judge that she was not guilty and just wanted to go home to her lemon trees, the judge told her no and sent her off to jail. When Moses went to Pharoah and told him to let the Israelites go, Pharoah said no and woke up one morning to find his son dead. No happens, even to the greatest among us. When God told Adam not to eat the fruit of the forbidden tree, what did Adam do as soon as God wasn't looking? Oprah, welcome to the world of no.
Unfortunatly, Hermes acted cowardly and immediately issued mea culpas for their actions. No doubt, the employee who locked the door has been fired, and the watch Oprah intended to buy has already been delivered without her having to pay. By the time the "Crash" show airs in September, her studio audience will also receive a carload of gifts from Hermes.
If there is a lesson to derive from Oprah's experience or from the movie, it is that people *crash* into each other for a variety of reasons. The history of racism in this country and around the world certainly makes us more aware, so it stands to reason that people do everything they can to avoid each other on that basis. Thus, race doesn't propel us toward each other at any greater speed than anything else. In Oprah's case, her sense of entitlement collided head on with Hermes, which felt just as entitled as she did (after all, she can't possibly be the first rich person to make similar demands).
In the final analysis, we all crash, usually when we aren't paying attention. It happens when we let down our guard or take our eyes off the road. It is an inevitable part of life, but we recover, get back to our routines, and do our best to make better choices.
In the future, I think Oprah will now call ahead...
Thursday, July 07, 2005
Chaos, Idiocy, and Other Signs of the Times
It isn't like I haven't wanted to blog, I just haven't had the time. Turning on my computer takes tremendous effort, because there are a ton of things I need to do when I'm on. Either that means that I am very lazy or more disorganized than I care to admit.
Anyway, lots of things going on, so I'll begin with the most pressing news of the day:
I am a thief. Today I wandered around Fresh Fields/Whole Foods looking for something to eat, which is always a bad idea when you are hungry. I didn't feel inspired about anything, and after going back and forth through the salad bar with nothing to show for it, I finally decided to get a deli wrap. The salmon wrap caught my eye, so I added it to my basket in exchange for the paltry container of sushi that I had been considering. Then I added a very expensive bag of gourmet potato chips and Odwalla Superfood green drink. This was going to be one of the most expensive take out lunches in history.
Except that when it came time to pay for my groceries, the check out guy forgot to scan my salmon wrap. I noticed immediately, but I didn't say anything... I paid for the items he rung up, took my paper (not plastic) sack, escaped the chaos of the store, and headed for the car. I thought about going back to admit my sin, but my legs never actually turned back in the direction of the store. I got in my car and drove home filled with guilt, all the while telling myself that it wasn't worth going back to the store to pay the $5 I owed.
As I write, I am now eating the offending salmon wrap and I take comfort in the fact that it was probably made from farm raised, artificially red-dyed salmon, which I specifically banned from the house several months ago after a most disturbing PBS special, which now not only makes me a thief but also a hypocrite. In the car, I considered giving the wrap to a homeless person for lunch, but because it contains uncooked fish, and I wouldn't want anyone to get sick. Thus, it would be better for me to keep the wrap so in case there is something wrong with it, I am the one who would get sick which would serve me right for leaving the Whole Foods without paying for my food in the first place!
Ah, ethical dilemnas. In the final analysis, I don't want to get sick, I really do feel bad, and to prove it, I will continue to eat the wrap but I won't enjoy any of it. Furthermore, I will donate the $5 that I should have paid for it to a worthy cause as soon as I finish eating it.
See, all better now.
Onto other major news of the day: Today as I was walking through downtown to turn in some work (well before my Whole Foods excursion), I passed a radio station promotional vehicle that was parked on the sidewalk. At first I thought I might be able to win some concert tix to scalp on Ebay, but as I got closer I noticed that there was a crowd of people who were waiting to sign up for something, so I kept walking. Then the flashbulb of memory went off and I realized that it was the Luther Vandross Sympathy Card, and then I hurried to get away as quickly as possible.
It was yesterday morning when I first heard that the station planned to do this, and in between snoozing the alarm, I scorned the sheer stupidity of such a suggestion. When I saw it up close, I realized that not only was the idea stupid, but so were all of the people who had lined up on the sidewalk to participate.
Just another example of how public "grief" has become even more ridiculous and random.
First of all, there was a train bombing in London today, so I would think that more of us would be concerned about public safety, especially near Metro stations (and of course, they were parked at the entrance of a major Metro station downtown). And I bet that several of those fools took the train specifically to that spot in order to sign the card...
Then you figure that none of these people, including the clueless radio station people actually knew Luther Vandross, so why sign a "card" of condolences for a man that you've never met? Sure, we all "knew" him through his music, the same way we "knew" Princess Diana through her photos. How many of us knew that his middle came from a box of pasta? If his family needed any reassurances that Luther was beloved, then what will be more meaningful, this card or his posthumous record $ales...
Finally, this is soooo random. When Ray Charles died, I don't recall a similar effort to remember him, and the same thing goes for Rick James, Barry White, Curtis Mayfield, or even Marvin Gaye (not that I would even remember). When Ossie Davis, the dean of black actors died earlier this year, there was no similar outpouring of public grief. But I bet that by this time next week, some idiot will be selling memorial t-shirts and damn near every middle aged black woman in America will have one to wear on casual Fridays or to the mall...
I'm venting here about black people again...(the piece that I plan to finish as soon as I donate that $5 to pay for that wrap made from that genetically-modified, artificially colored and flavored, tank-raised salmon).
Anyway, lots of things going on, so I'll begin with the most pressing news of the day:
I am a thief. Today I wandered around Fresh Fields/Whole Foods looking for something to eat, which is always a bad idea when you are hungry. I didn't feel inspired about anything, and after going back and forth through the salad bar with nothing to show for it, I finally decided to get a deli wrap. The salmon wrap caught my eye, so I added it to my basket in exchange for the paltry container of sushi that I had been considering. Then I added a very expensive bag of gourmet potato chips and Odwalla Superfood green drink. This was going to be one of the most expensive take out lunches in history.
Except that when it came time to pay for my groceries, the check out guy forgot to scan my salmon wrap. I noticed immediately, but I didn't say anything... I paid for the items he rung up, took my paper (not plastic) sack, escaped the chaos of the store, and headed for the car. I thought about going back to admit my sin, but my legs never actually turned back in the direction of the store. I got in my car and drove home filled with guilt, all the while telling myself that it wasn't worth going back to the store to pay the $5 I owed.
As I write, I am now eating the offending salmon wrap and I take comfort in the fact that it was probably made from farm raised, artificially red-dyed salmon, which I specifically banned from the house several months ago after a most disturbing PBS special, which now not only makes me a thief but also a hypocrite. In the car, I considered giving the wrap to a homeless person for lunch, but because it contains uncooked fish, and I wouldn't want anyone to get sick. Thus, it would be better for me to keep the wrap so in case there is something wrong with it, I am the one who would get sick which would serve me right for leaving the Whole Foods without paying for my food in the first place!
Ah, ethical dilemnas. In the final analysis, I don't want to get sick, I really do feel bad, and to prove it, I will continue to eat the wrap but I won't enjoy any of it. Furthermore, I will donate the $5 that I should have paid for it to a worthy cause as soon as I finish eating it.
See, all better now.
Onto other major news of the day: Today as I was walking through downtown to turn in some work (well before my Whole Foods excursion), I passed a radio station promotional vehicle that was parked on the sidewalk. At first I thought I might be able to win some concert tix to scalp on Ebay, but as I got closer I noticed that there was a crowd of people who were waiting to sign up for something, so I kept walking. Then the flashbulb of memory went off and I realized that it was the Luther Vandross Sympathy Card, and then I hurried to get away as quickly as possible.
It was yesterday morning when I first heard that the station planned to do this, and in between snoozing the alarm, I scorned the sheer stupidity of such a suggestion. When I saw it up close, I realized that not only was the idea stupid, but so were all of the people who had lined up on the sidewalk to participate.
Just another example of how public "grief" has become even more ridiculous and random.
First of all, there was a train bombing in London today, so I would think that more of us would be concerned about public safety, especially near Metro stations (and of course, they were parked at the entrance of a major Metro station downtown). And I bet that several of those fools took the train specifically to that spot in order to sign the card...
Then you figure that none of these people, including the clueless radio station people actually knew Luther Vandross, so why sign a "card" of condolences for a man that you've never met? Sure, we all "knew" him through his music, the same way we "knew" Princess Diana through her photos. How many of us knew that his middle came from a box of pasta? If his family needed any reassurances that Luther was beloved, then what will be more meaningful, this card or his posthumous record $ales...
Finally, this is soooo random. When Ray Charles died, I don't recall a similar effort to remember him, and the same thing goes for Rick James, Barry White, Curtis Mayfield, or even Marvin Gaye (not that I would even remember). When Ossie Davis, the dean of black actors died earlier this year, there was no similar outpouring of public grief. But I bet that by this time next week, some idiot will be selling memorial t-shirts and damn near every middle aged black woman in America will have one to wear on casual Fridays or to the mall...
I'm venting here about black people again...(the piece that I plan to finish as soon as I donate that $5 to pay for that wrap made from that genetically-modified, artificially colored and flavored, tank-raised salmon).
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
Cultivating More Bad Habits
I'm a full-blown TV addict. In the past few weeks since we our new TV came to life, I'm spending more and more time in front of the telly, so this might explain why I don't use the computer as often anymore. With 150 channels and counting, all of my time is spent finding something suitable to watch.
Of course, cable is replete with makeover shows (for the home, the straight guy/gal, gay pets, etc), re-runs, old movies, cartoons, music videos, pop-culture count-downs, home shopping infomercials, religious programming, around-the-clock news to make you snooze (or booze), and documentaries on every possible subject. Those faux celebreality "where are they now" shows are the icing on the cake. Why didn't I get cable sooner?
Of course, I was able to entertain myself just fine with the 7 very clear, 3 somewhat clear, and the 6 fuzzy channels we already had. But as our reception got worse, we realized that it was only a matter of time before we had to give in. When Rick's 35th belated birthday gift to himself arrived with no antenna attachment, and we could only watch DVDs and two fuzzy TV channels, it was finally time. In exchange for our 16 or so free access channels, we got 150, 100 of which we can totally do without.
Another very weird habit I've cultivated is working out crossword puzzles. It started innocently enough one night back in May when Rick and my brother went off to softball practice. I was reading through the paper and spotted an easy clue that I could answer and from that moment, I've been hooked. And it isn't just an addiction to the puzzles in the Post, it also includes the Post Express, the Examiner and the City Paper. The Magazine's Sunday puzzle is a little to difficult for me and I can't even imagine the NYTimes puzzle which is among the hardest.
So am I total freak yet? I mean, does anyone else out there keep a dictionary, an atlas, and mechanical pencils on hand to obsess, er solve crossword puzzles?
I have a multitude of bad habits, and it seems that the older I get the worse they get. I am still rather not-neat (Rick is the sloppy one), and while I breath sighs of relief when I watch that "Clean Sweep" show on the Style network and see other people's junk, it only reinforces the TV addiction thing. I have been back on the caffeine wagon again, and it is really bad this time around because I've been drinking it in the form of regular Coke in addition to Diet Coke. This only happens when my stress levels are high, which can only mean that I am: (a) nervous about something that hasn't happened yet, (b) nervous about something I forgot to do which will catch up to me and bite me in the ass pretty soon, or (c) just weak because the regular Coke has been in the house since Father's Day and I'm attracted to the pretty red cans. Potato chips are another weakness, along with chocolate, popcorn, hamburgers, and other food I binge on when depressed...or on my period.
So at least that mystery is solved--I'm not depressed.
I've lost weight, so I look a lot better these days, but my efforts to maintain are suffering from a severe lack of motivation. And I've got plenty of excuses:
In a way, I'm so normal that I thank God my issues and bad habits aren't interesting enough for TV. Because then I'd be up all night watching it.
Of course, cable is replete with makeover shows (for the home, the straight guy/gal, gay pets, etc), re-runs, old movies, cartoons, music videos, pop-culture count-downs, home shopping infomercials, religious programming, around-the-clock news to make you snooze (or booze), and documentaries on every possible subject. Those faux celebreality "where are they now" shows are the icing on the cake. Why didn't I get cable sooner?
Of course, I was able to entertain myself just fine with the 7 very clear, 3 somewhat clear, and the 6 fuzzy channels we already had. But as our reception got worse, we realized that it was only a matter of time before we had to give in. When Rick's 35th belated birthday gift to himself arrived with no antenna attachment, and we could only watch DVDs and two fuzzy TV channels, it was finally time. In exchange for our 16 or so free access channels, we got 150, 100 of which we can totally do without.
Another very weird habit I've cultivated is working out crossword puzzles. It started innocently enough one night back in May when Rick and my brother went off to softball practice. I was reading through the paper and spotted an easy clue that I could answer and from that moment, I've been hooked. And it isn't just an addiction to the puzzles in the Post, it also includes the Post Express, the Examiner and the City Paper. The Magazine's Sunday puzzle is a little to difficult for me and I can't even imagine the NYTimes puzzle which is among the hardest.
So am I total freak yet? I mean, does anyone else out there keep a dictionary, an atlas, and mechanical pencils on hand to obsess, er solve crossword puzzles?
I have a multitude of bad habits, and it seems that the older I get the worse they get. I am still rather not-neat (Rick is the sloppy one), and while I breath sighs of relief when I watch that "Clean Sweep" show on the Style network and see other people's junk, it only reinforces the TV addiction thing. I have been back on the caffeine wagon again, and it is really bad this time around because I've been drinking it in the form of regular Coke in addition to Diet Coke. This only happens when my stress levels are high, which can only mean that I am: (a) nervous about something that hasn't happened yet, (b) nervous about something I forgot to do which will catch up to me and bite me in the ass pretty soon, or (c) just weak because the regular Coke has been in the house since Father's Day and I'm attracted to the pretty red cans. Potato chips are another weakness, along with chocolate, popcorn, hamburgers, and other food I binge on when depressed...or on my period.
So at least that mystery is solved--I'm not depressed.
I've lost weight, so I look a lot better these days, but my efforts to maintain are suffering from a severe lack of motivation. And I've got plenty of excuses:
- I don't ride my bike very often for fear of being jacked, killed or kidnapped (take your pick, I live in the city).
- I don't use my roller blades because as a grown-ass woman strapped into a helmet, wrist, elbow and knee pads, I would look pretty stupid skating all by myself.
- I can't used my tennis racket because I have no one to play with and I don't know how.
- I really didn't want the treadmill--it is just there for drying clothes.
- My New York City Ballet workout DVD has been viewed several times, and used even fewer times, which is better than I can say for the yoga/pilates book...
In a way, I'm so normal that I thank God my issues and bad habits aren't interesting enough for TV. Because then I'd be up all night watching it.
Sunday, June 26, 2005
Black Music Month - 50 Reasons to Groan
Who knew June was Black Music Month. I must have missed Bill Clinton's official proclamation. Or it's more likely that Columbia House or BMG are simply trying to get folks to buy over-priced CDs. It's either that or a way for BET to hype up its sorry annual Awards show.
Actually, the first time I even heard about Black Music Month back in 2001 when I wrote a free-lance feature piece for NetNoir. Yes, that meant that I wrote great pieces and they *paid* me with exposure. (It was a great honor, which unfortunately I did not appreciate at the time. For if I had, I would still be writing somewhere officially on the web or in print, instead of laboring in online obscurity.)
Anyway, back then I wrote about what I thought was the sorry state of R&B music after observing a video for a remake of "Lady Marmalade." Since then, things have not improved. If anything, things are worse.
Of course, I can even say this with any sort of authority because I now have cable. I rarely listen to music on the radio anymore, and when I do, I am locked onto the adult urban contemporary stations (which is code for easy listening for black people with jobs). Whenever I have dared to tune into the other black radio stations, I end up listening to a succession of bleeps.
With cable, I get to watch videos on a regular basis, so that averages out to about one complete video every other day. It also gives me a chance to stay current with what the kids listen to (how old do I sound). So far, I only like Ludacris, Eminem, and Missy when it comes to hip hop. They each get high marks for originality, creativity, talent and a basic command of the English language. As for R&B, my favorites are John Legend, Alicia Keys, India.Arie, Jill Scott, Eryka Bahdu, Queen Latifah, and most other neo-soul artists. And you can never go wrong with the oldies (you know, those people who recorded albums and records once upon a time).
Still, in spite of these few bright spots, I hereby declare that the general state of black music is bad. Terrible. Aweful. Shameful. Here are a few reasons:
Actually, the first time I even heard about Black Music Month back in 2001 when I wrote a free-lance feature piece for NetNoir. Yes, that meant that I wrote great pieces and they *paid* me with exposure. (It was a great honor, which unfortunately I did not appreciate at the time. For if I had, I would still be writing somewhere officially on the web or in print, instead of laboring in online obscurity.)
Anyway, back then I wrote about what I thought was the sorry state of R&B music after observing a video for a remake of "Lady Marmalade." Since then, things have not improved. If anything, things are worse.
Of course, I can even say this with any sort of authority because I now have cable. I rarely listen to music on the radio anymore, and when I do, I am locked onto the adult urban contemporary stations (which is code for easy listening for black people with jobs). Whenever I have dared to tune into the other black radio stations, I end up listening to a succession of bleeps.
With cable, I get to watch videos on a regular basis, so that averages out to about one complete video every other day. It also gives me a chance to stay current with what the kids listen to (how old do I sound). So far, I only like Ludacris, Eminem, and Missy when it comes to hip hop. They each get high marks for originality, creativity, talent and a basic command of the English language. As for R&B, my favorites are John Legend, Alicia Keys, India.Arie, Jill Scott, Eryka Bahdu, Queen Latifah, and most other neo-soul artists. And you can never go wrong with the oldies (you know, those people who recorded albums and records once upon a time).
Still, in spite of these few bright spots, I hereby declare that the general state of black music is bad. Terrible. Aweful. Shameful. Here are a few reasons:
- Destiny's Child is the 21st century version of the Supremes.
- P. Diddy and Kanye West are poor substitutes for Jimmy Jam, Terry Lewis, Babyface and other super producers of the 80s and 90s.
- Faith and Mary J. Blige are both very talented, but neither deserves the right to be called a diva anytime soon.
- Mariah Carey was once black, but somewhere along the line, she forgot.
- Usher, no more whack *confessions*.
- Brandy and Monica, your stars faded too fast.
- Prince is not recognized as a true musical genius.
- People keep buying R. Kelly CDs when they really shouldn't, not ever.
- New Edition is under-appreciated for their work after Bobby left.
- Collaboration songs are a last ditch effort to remain relevant just before that last minute of fame runs out.
- Love songs can be about more than sex.
- It is not all about you, so put the mirror away.
- Patti LaBelle may be crazy, but she's damn near 70 and still going strong.
- Entertainers and Recording stars replaced singers and artists.
- Black Brits like Seal and Incognito get no airtime on black radio.
- Toni Braxton needs to put on some damn clothes.
- If you need JaRule, DMX or some other similarly un-talented rapper to growl in the background of your song, it was't very good in the first place.
- Act or sing, but don't do both.
- If you have the good fortune to be a one-hit wonderful, enjoy your 15 minutes of fame, save your money, and then disappear into obscurity like everyone else.
- The guaranteed career boost you get by performing live on the Today Show, Good Morning America, Saturday Night Live, Jay Leno or Dave Letterman won't materialize if you don't sound the same on live TV as you do on your CD.
- The Black Eyed Peas are stupid and totally over-rated.
- Sampling is so 90s, so can someone please learn to play an instrument and write some original music?
- God does not care that you won a Grammy, an American Music Award, or any other faux honor from your peers, so just say thank you and sit down.
- If your gospel song can't be played in church, then it isn't holy.
- Shrieking is unpleasant and uneccesary.
- If you have to wear designer labels to get attention, then you aren't very talented.
- Your children should not co-star with you in the reality series about your sorry life.
- As soon as you make a cameo appearance as an aspiring singer on a sitcom, then your career has officially ended.
- High-profile breakups will ruin your career, just ask J Lo and Puffy.
- Just because you have blonde hair now, you are still black, Latina, etc.
- The Star Spangled Banner is a two minute song, tops.
- Please tell Stevie Wonder that he is fat.
- Kellis and Amerie, your time is almost up, just ask Adina Howard.
- If you can't remain a born-again, saved and sanctified singer of the Word after that one gospel CD, then you are going to hell.
- No, I don't want to be hot/stank/hard-core like you.
- Pretty does not equal talent.
- Tribe, En Vogue and Tony, Toni, Tone all broke up.
- If you are over 21, then you are too old to go by a nickname.
- Snoop Dogg never looked like Snoopy--he has always resembled Marmaduke.
- Whitney was right, crack is whack--just look at her life.
- Not all collaborations make sense, such as the fusion of hip-hop and country music.
- Try something unique and daring, but not something stupid.
- No one can survive being shot 9 times, so don't believe the hype.
- If you can't appreciate other genres of music, like jazz or blues, then you are an idiot.
- Some of the greatest talents were once background singers for other great talents, so there is nothing wrong with paying your dues.
- Act like you were raised by human beings and carry yourself with dignity and respect.
- Unless done extremely well or with a different interpretation, remakes aren't flattery but indicate that someone was desperate to fill space on a mediocre CD.
- Don't let petty rivalries from your music spill over into your personal life--that's how Biggie and Tupac ended up dead.
- We don't need to know all about your life, so skip the Behind the Music biopic and save some details for an autobiography.
- Michael Jackson is the tragedy of what happens when you surround yourself with people who never say no to your requests.
Sunday, June 19, 2005
Civility, Where Art Thou?
Last night I attended a recital for a local dance company at Crampton Auditorium on Howard University's campus. Last weekend, I manned the door at the children's recital at St. Mark's. A few weeks ago I went to Dance Place to see a performance by the Washington Reflections Dance Theatre. The contrast among the three performances could not have been more stark. It all had to do with the conduct of the audience.
At Dance Place, I arrived and bought a ticket for the show at the box office. Everyone in the lobby was calm, patient and generally friendly. Because it was a Tuesday night, I'm sure that most of the attendees were either art critics, friends of the company members or artistic director, members of Dance Place, dancers themselves, or just curious people who enjoy seeing dance performances at a reasonable price, but each was serious about dance. I was seated near a small group of women who chattered incessantly prior to the performance, but once the lights went out, they shut up and remained quiet until the end. There was no getting up to go to the bathroom, no cell phones, and only a little cheering from the audience--at the end of the evening.
In contrast, last weekend at St. Mark's children's recital, some parents arrived well past the stated beginning of the recital (which was 12 noon) and still expected to be seated. I stood sentry at the door to keep it closed, so that meant that I didn't see much of the performances. As St. Marks does not really have a backstage, we had to create one by blocking access to the parish hall and the dance studio so that the girls could prepare without the constant in-and-out/back-and-forth parade of parents. This meant a constant struggle with the grandparents who wanted to see their little ballerinas, brothers who wanted to tease little sisters, mothers who wanted to take photos, and the daddies who wanted to present flowers. Apparently no one considered that it might be best to do all of this prior to the recital or wait until it ended. (To be fair, most of the parents did conduct themselves properly and were respectful and courteous.)
Then there was last night's recital for the Expressions Dance Company. I went to see my aunt perform, and I thought she did a great job. As for the other performances, well...aside from a dancers' critique on the uninspired and predictable choreography, I've seen worse. However, it was the conduct of the audience that made this experience so completely unenjoyable that I left with a headache. The audience was so unruly that it there was total and utter chaos during the entire performance. By intermission, I was ready to leave because: (a) I had seen enough and did not expect much more variety in the performances; (b) I figured that we had missed my aunt's performance anyway; (c) I still had my Saturday crossword puzzle to do; and (d) if I wanted to hear all that cheering and screaming, I would have gone to a ball game and not to a dance recital!
These three experiences have left me with one some pretty damning impressions: DO PEOPLE EVEN KNOW HOW TO CONDUCT THEMSELVES IN PUBLIC ANYMORE? If you take the time to get dressed and pay for admission, wouldn't you prefer to enjoy what is on stage rather than what is happening in the audience? There is a time and a place for everthing: cheering, screaming, constant standing, leaving and retuning, dancing in the aisles, etc., should be reserved for the appropriate events, such as a ball game, an outdoor music festival, or Mardi Gras.
I have now added Crampton Auditorium to the list of places I refuse to go for any type of event. This list gets longer the older I get, which is sad because soon I'll be stuck in my house watching PBS or cable for cultural enrichment. A few weeks ago, I proclaimed that I don't do Constitution Hall anymore because of the audiences it attracts. To think Marian Anderson was refused the right to sing there in the 30s...I wonder if she would even think it was worth it today.
At Dance Place, I arrived and bought a ticket for the show at the box office. Everyone in the lobby was calm, patient and generally friendly. Because it was a Tuesday night, I'm sure that most of the attendees were either art critics, friends of the company members or artistic director, members of Dance Place, dancers themselves, or just curious people who enjoy seeing dance performances at a reasonable price, but each was serious about dance. I was seated near a small group of women who chattered incessantly prior to the performance, but once the lights went out, they shut up and remained quiet until the end. There was no getting up to go to the bathroom, no cell phones, and only a little cheering from the audience--at the end of the evening.
In contrast, last weekend at St. Mark's children's recital, some parents arrived well past the stated beginning of the recital (which was 12 noon) and still expected to be seated. I stood sentry at the door to keep it closed, so that meant that I didn't see much of the performances. As St. Marks does not really have a backstage, we had to create one by blocking access to the parish hall and the dance studio so that the girls could prepare without the constant in-and-out/back-and-forth parade of parents. This meant a constant struggle with the grandparents who wanted to see their little ballerinas, brothers who wanted to tease little sisters, mothers who wanted to take photos, and the daddies who wanted to present flowers. Apparently no one considered that it might be best to do all of this prior to the recital or wait until it ended. (To be fair, most of the parents did conduct themselves properly and were respectful and courteous.)
Then there was last night's recital for the Expressions Dance Company. I went to see my aunt perform, and I thought she did a great job. As for the other performances, well...aside from a dancers' critique on the uninspired and predictable choreography, I've seen worse. However, it was the conduct of the audience that made this experience so completely unenjoyable that I left with a headache. The audience was so unruly that it there was total and utter chaos during the entire performance. By intermission, I was ready to leave because: (a) I had seen enough and did not expect much more variety in the performances; (b) I figured that we had missed my aunt's performance anyway; (c) I still had my Saturday crossword puzzle to do; and (d) if I wanted to hear all that cheering and screaming, I would have gone to a ball game and not to a dance recital!
These three experiences have left me with one some pretty damning impressions: DO PEOPLE EVEN KNOW HOW TO CONDUCT THEMSELVES IN PUBLIC ANYMORE? If you take the time to get dressed and pay for admission, wouldn't you prefer to enjoy what is on stage rather than what is happening in the audience? There is a time and a place for everthing: cheering, screaming, constant standing, leaving and retuning, dancing in the aisles, etc., should be reserved for the appropriate events, such as a ball game, an outdoor music festival, or Mardi Gras.
I have now added Crampton Auditorium to the list of places I refuse to go for any type of event. This list gets longer the older I get, which is sad because soon I'll be stuck in my house watching PBS or cable for cultural enrichment. A few weeks ago, I proclaimed that I don't do Constitution Hall anymore because of the audiences it attracts. To think Marian Anderson was refused the right to sing there in the 30s...I wonder if she would even think it was worth it today.
Monday, June 13, 2005
Shameful Sighs of Relief
I am ashamed to admit that around 3:30 EDT, I sat glued to the TV in anticipation of the verdict in the Michael Jackson case. He was found not-guilty on all charges. What empty relief.
Of course, not too long ago in this very space, I declared that my childhood fascination with all things Michael Jackson had ended. I believed that his odd behavior, bizarre appearance, and apparent lack of boundaries were indicative of a man out of control--the complete opposite of the child-like image of innocence that he and his handlers had so carefully crafted all these years. Although I never believed that Mike had molested this kid, I did think that he was guilty of exercising extremely poor judgment.
So instead of occupying myself with something more worthy of my time, I sat worrying about the verdict and felt eternally sorry for the man who once was king of the world. Instead of the vibrant, electric entertainer I knew as a child, the man I saw ushered into the courtroom surrounded by bodyguards and family was barely able to walk on his own.
What a sad, pitiful, pathetic sight! I doubt that he would have been able to survive the initial impact of a guilty verdict. The minute that the bailiffs would have approached him with handcuffs to carry him off to jail, this Michael Jackson would have dropped dead on the spot. If he didn't die immediately of shock, he surely would have arranged to have one of his handlers slip him a belt or a bedsheet that would have done the deed later on.
This Michael Jackson can't even make friends his own age, so he cavorts with children. He is so fragile that he needs to be protected from the sun and can't even manage to hold his own umbrella. He is so blase that he appears not capable of thinking for himself and has handlers to manage every move that he makes. He is so gullible that he gets used over and over again by opportunists who think nothing of pimping their own children. Finally, he is so stupid because it was by his own admission of inappropriate behavior with young boys that got him into this mess in the first place.
What a loser.
I am ashamed because there are more important things happening in the world other than the Michael Jackson trial. Unfortunately, in our celebrity obsessed culture, the trials and tribulations of the rich and famous are more important and newsworthy than stopping terrorists or finding weapons of mass destruction.
I am ashamed because this type of diversion is the type of crap that shifts attention away from real tragedies. As we awaited the verdict in this case, a plane crashed in Florida, yet I bet we won't know if anyone survived until 11 after all of the analysis, critiques and endless commentary. I wish more people had been this focused on the election in 2004, which would have averted another real tragedy.
I am ashamed because the discussion on Oprah concerning sexual abuse and child molestation caused me to feel nervous and a little nausea, not because I was sickened by what happened to her guests, but because it indicated a bad omen for the verdict.
I am ashamed that I reacted to this verdict like a star-struck California juror. Clearly, these people are incapable of convicting celebrities, no matter how heinous their crimes. These are the same people who elected an over-rated actor as their governor, so why is this a surprise? Is it any wonder why Robert Blake and OJ got off too?
Finally, I am ashamed of my own sordid fascination with this case. As soon as it was announced, I called my parents, my husband and my best friend to share the 'good' news. I'm devoting all of this time to write about it...
What a loser.
Of course, not too long ago in this very space, I declared that my childhood fascination with all things Michael Jackson had ended. I believed that his odd behavior, bizarre appearance, and apparent lack of boundaries were indicative of a man out of control--the complete opposite of the child-like image of innocence that he and his handlers had so carefully crafted all these years. Although I never believed that Mike had molested this kid, I did think that he was guilty of exercising extremely poor judgment.
So instead of occupying myself with something more worthy of my time, I sat worrying about the verdict and felt eternally sorry for the man who once was king of the world. Instead of the vibrant, electric entertainer I knew as a child, the man I saw ushered into the courtroom surrounded by bodyguards and family was barely able to walk on his own.
What a sad, pitiful, pathetic sight! I doubt that he would have been able to survive the initial impact of a guilty verdict. The minute that the bailiffs would have approached him with handcuffs to carry him off to jail, this Michael Jackson would have dropped dead on the spot. If he didn't die immediately of shock, he surely would have arranged to have one of his handlers slip him a belt or a bedsheet that would have done the deed later on.
This Michael Jackson can't even make friends his own age, so he cavorts with children. He is so fragile that he needs to be protected from the sun and can't even manage to hold his own umbrella. He is so blase that he appears not capable of thinking for himself and has handlers to manage every move that he makes. He is so gullible that he gets used over and over again by opportunists who think nothing of pimping their own children. Finally, he is so stupid because it was by his own admission of inappropriate behavior with young boys that got him into this mess in the first place.
What a loser.
I am ashamed because there are more important things happening in the world other than the Michael Jackson trial. Unfortunately, in our celebrity obsessed culture, the trials and tribulations of the rich and famous are more important and newsworthy than stopping terrorists or finding weapons of mass destruction.
I am ashamed because this type of diversion is the type of crap that shifts attention away from real tragedies. As we awaited the verdict in this case, a plane crashed in Florida, yet I bet we won't know if anyone survived until 11 after all of the analysis, critiques and endless commentary. I wish more people had been this focused on the election in 2004, which would have averted another real tragedy.
I am ashamed because the discussion on Oprah concerning sexual abuse and child molestation caused me to feel nervous and a little nausea, not because I was sickened by what happened to her guests, but because it indicated a bad omen for the verdict.
I am ashamed that I reacted to this verdict like a star-struck California juror. Clearly, these people are incapable of convicting celebrities, no matter how heinous their crimes. These are the same people who elected an over-rated actor as their governor, so why is this a surprise? Is it any wonder why Robert Blake and OJ got off too?
Finally, I am ashamed of my own sordid fascination with this case. As soon as it was announced, I called my parents, my husband and my best friend to share the 'good' news. I'm devoting all of this time to write about it...
What a loser.
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